Today, I embark on what is probably the biggest effort I've ever made. I'm already messing up, too. That's ok. It happens. It will continue to happen. I'm human. I want to be a better human.
This effort stems from my awareness; change begins within me. This scripture has haunted me for too long now. Tells me I'm missing the mark, for all my words.
I'm not exactly sure just yet, how to approach this. How to lay out this blog. Or my thoughts for that matter.
I know that today was a day of too many tears. Mine. I am frustrated with the dynamic in my home. And, though my head knows what to do, my actions aren't matching up.
For every eye roll, and rude retort, I need to reach deeper. No matter what.
For every slight and disrespectful interaction, I need to reach deeper, and let my reactions match the words I know in this scripture.
I need, at some point, on some level, to let myself off the hook a bit, for not remembering, in the moment.
One day down. I have a freakin' long way to go...
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