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Yesterday was a me being really aware of my everything day. Almost a memory game of sorts, where the moment was a flash card and my remembrance was the scripture - to match a moment AND act in love was a winning hand.
Day 23
Today brought me this: a smile knowing, even as I am failing, I am being made over. FLIP A CARD. I've never gotten satisfaction in lashing out in thought or deed - not from the point of malicious intent, anyway. I have though, reacted in a way of "getting even" by setting someone straight, in indignation. This morning, I opened my work email to a particularly difficult situation that began a few days ago. FLIP A CARD. The person who had previously rubbed me raw, hadn't followed through. The days prior, I was indignant and extremely irritated...and considered myself justified because I had done what I was supposed to do. This morning, however; I was changed to that situation, and that person. FLIP A CARD. I was changed. FLIP A CARD. Not the other person, who is STILL behaving the same way. FLIP A CARD. I was changed. FLIP A CARD. On the outside, I have remained professional. On the inside, I was lashing out, thinking the person to be inept, and other unkind thoughts. Last night, as I fell asleep, I was reminded to pray for my "enemies". FLIP A CARD. The person isn't really an enemy, per se, however; we have both acted as though we are; the person with all the accusations, and me, with all my thoughts. Enemies. FLIP A CARD.
It's getting in. Something is getting in. Change may come overnight but, it doesn't happen overnight.
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